i am going to eat you

i’m just gonna die now ;_____________;
when it was my turn, i got so nervous and i put my drawing into the gift box, which i regret so much! i wish i gave it to them directly so i can see their reactions :’D
but anyway, i was so nervous and didn’t know if i should go or wait til the staff tell me to or whatever, so i was waiting there awkwardly, then byou looks at me and pats the chair telling me to sit there :’D so i go there and by that time my brain wasn’t even working so i didn’t notice that rui had his hand on my head and kazuki had his hand on my shoulder lol and when the picture was taken, i turned back to them and said thank you, but i got too nervous so i think i just looked at byou and said it to him haha oops…

some closeups because i think they look so handsome *___________*
and it’s so funny because i look so big and chubby but their heads look big (maybe because of their hair) and their body is so small and skinny ahh i wanna be like that ;_;)
 
byou and i :’D 
thank goodness i had a surgical mask on…
i can’t believe how close i was to him ahhhh…
and wow look how pale i am i’m like a ghost haha, and even though i have half my face covered i still manage to look so ugly and fat wow…

jin and i~
oops i was leaning closer to byou then him x’D
also wow their signatures… do they actually mean anything -___-
 
look at kazuki’s smile ahhhhhhh
 
rui looks so happy haha, and manabu i wanna see more of your face! :<
 
top row 8)

bottom row 8)

that’s it xDDDD
and now the merch i bought~
i bought so little things, i’m so sad! 
i got a tshirt in mens size L lol because i’m fat and i’m a man
i bought all the bracelets haha, the black plastic band one, the purple one, and the screw one~

then i got the towel, it’s mainly for decoration in my room :’D

(i replaced the gay trinity blood poster with the new screw poster i bought :DDDDD)
i bought the poster and huge photo, which was crinkled a lot because i was holding it during the live because i didn’t want to stick it in my bag x_x so now i’m in the process of trying to straightening it out…

and the only photoset i bought was the duality one… i’m so sad! i couldn’t see any of the other ones when i got there, and photosets are my absolute favourite things… but oh well :<

look how hot manabu looks *_____* i wanna be skinny like him!
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i looked like shit because i was all sweaty and sticky (ikr how gross -___-) 
because i arrived in london at about 8am and had to walk around under the fucking hot sun until 4pm when i went to the venue to wait -____-; 

so by that time my hair has all fallen down and looked like a mess, thank god i took a picture before that :’DDD
 

omg i want to see screw live again ;___; 
it makes me sad that they won’t ever even remember who i was lol and i’m so insignificant to them…

also i remember someone told me they thought i was rui when i was queue… what xD

oh and a lot of people in camden asked if i was japanese… it made me kinda happy haha :——D

stuff i bought in camden 8)


dublin to london~
i was staring out the window for the entire journey *_*
look at the horizon and the density and dimensions of the clouds, so fascinating! 

 
space food! so cool :DDDDDDDDDDD  
it’s freeze-dried ready to eat strawberries, and on the back it says “…as you eat the fruits, your mouth rehydrates the strawberries, restoring it to its original state”. 
so basically it means your saliva makes it normal again xD

mr roboto, so cool *_*

 
you plug it on his anus lol

 
batman and terminator (i think?) popobe ;wwwww;
i bought a pirate, r2d2 and another stylish one (dunno how to describe it :’D) ones for my siblings

lolli usb key~ 
and spiderman one for my brother. i wanted that xD

and i bought a bunch of clothes and i tried them on but i don’t wanna out them up because i look fat 8)

oh and i bought some jewellery but i can’t be bothered to take pictures of them 8)

i wanna go to camden again… 

one day the moon was so pretty so i tried to take a photo…

i messed around with the settings on my camera and this happened lol

for desperate anon…

this is so old lol
and so ironic how i have a pepsi hoodie and am holding a coke zero :——D 

i’ll just leave this here to make my blog less boring…
if that works :/